Thursday, January 29, 2015

"home"

So we finally went on our trip to Peru!!.. 11 days!!!  It was beyond incredible.. we went to Ollantaytambo, Machu Picchu, Santa Teresa, Urubamba, Pisac, Cusco and the Amazon (Puerto Maldonado)... so much adventure and so many new experiences.  It was wonderful to explore such an incredible part of Peru and to be able to spend time together as a family..

At the end of our journey though I felt something sort of odd.. I really felt displaced.  We were going 'home', but you see for me Buenos Aires is so not home yet.  I mean I have become comfortable here (as much as I can) and the kids were excited to be going home, but for me.. well I just felt so 'homesick'.  It does not help that really legally I have no 'home'... not a resident of the US anymore and my paperwork for residency here is STILL not finished.. just sad and frustrating..

I know that this is a wonderful adventure and I am so privileged to be able to experience living here.  I don't take that for granted (even though there are days I grip about things on Facebook)  It is just so different..  some days I can take missing everything I considered my normal, but there are days I just can't.. I mean nothing, nothing is the same as my life in Texas was.. nothing.. everything I knew how to do, is different; food.. different; relationships.. different; driving.. way different; shopping.. a complete and utter challenge!!  not to forget that my Spanish is still really horrible.. so the language barrier.. a total challenge.. which on certain days just gets a lot of deal with.. (my issue.. no one elses.. I should know more!!)

So while of course I am glad to be back 'home'.. I am just homesick.... such an odd feeling to encounter and completely unexpected..

On that note our trip to Peru was incredible.  To hear the kids tell grandparents and friends about random parts of the trip has been a lot of fun.  Hearing what made an impression to them is very interesting. 

Nola was most struck by our first full day in Peru when we went to visit a local Peruvian tribe of Quechua women who live in the mountains and are part of a weaving co-op there.  She has told a few people about her experience and at the time I wondered if she was getting anything out of it.. she was.  Nola was also the most adventurous eater of us all.. she tried Alpaca, Guinea Pig, Parana and Duck.. all which got pretty good reviews...

Cora wass really focused more on the weather!!  the storms were particularly strong for a few nights.. of course those were the nights when one hotel had only curtains for walls and the other was when the hotel only had screens for walls.. she's also into telling about the time I ate that hot chilly pepper and almost died!!  (she neglects to tell about the orange, star fruit, lemon, sugar cane, cocoa bean and other yummy stuff we all ate)

here are some random pics from our trip.. :) 
 Dunkin Donuts in the Lima airport... a small slice of heaven from New Jersey!!
 
I was amazed at how I looked at this kid all this trip and realized she is grown up somehow.. so beautiful and sweet.. sassy and a bit hard headed.. 

The weaving co-op.. the woman told us it would take her roughly a week to complete this whole project.  Amazing!!  the ladies there learn to weave from the age of 6.  They shear the animals, spin the yarn, dye the yarn and weave with it.. The also cooked us a traditional meal in a stone oven in the ground.  It was fabulous

There is not one picture that does Machu Picchu justice.. it is simply amazing.. to think that it was built by hand so many hundreds of years ago with no machines makes you just stand in awe!
 this is just a random stall in a market with a lovely lady selling peppers.. the open air fruit/veggie markets were so lively and happening.. I was able to purchase my new favorite tea flavor (anise) there.. I was happy
 a Peruvian treat.  choclo con queso.. corn with kernals as big as grapes with cheese.  Very yummy!!! 
 the selfie stick proved a great Christmas gift even if most of our selfies look like we are working a bit too hard at the selfie!!
 The peru rail train from Ollantaytambo to Machu Picchu proved a wonderful way to not only rest up a big (there are about 1000000 stairs at Machu Picchu) but it was a wonderful way to see the Peruvian landscape.
 it was either walk the 1/2 mile on the dirt path to the hotel.. or take a 'tuk tuk'.. basically a scooter with a seat.. LOL.. it was the highlight for the girls.  I am super thankful that my husband picks out the most remote of hotels (can you hear the sarcasm.. LOL)..

 Inca the wolf from Spain was an instant source of delight for the girls. 
 
The market in Pisac was just full of lovely treasures!!
sometimes you just walk to the hotel with the locals.. :)

In the amazon we did a canopy walk.. about 100 ft off the ground.. I think during this I was threatening death and divorce.. something like that.. you know while the rest of my family just giggled. 


it rained in Machu Picchu the first visit.. which was where I realized the 'rain coat' I purchased was really not water proof.. It proved a fun topic of conversation later on and did not hamper the fun!!
amazon parana fishing.. Cora caught 8 (and one sardine).. Scott caught 2, I caught 2 and while Nola was sad to only catch 2.. she did catch the biggest one of the day!!

You eat the parana.. bones and all.. whole.. this photo really makes me wonder where my baby has gone...
The wild life in the amazon was awesome.. we saw 4 different species of monkeys, 2 sloths, a caymen, several birds (even a tucan!!).. in this picture is a squirrel monkey.. yeah.. I can't find it either.. but I know I saw it.. LOL

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Happy New Year....

So this year I decided no to make any new years resolutions.. I mean I do every year and I never keep them.. I beat myself up about it and why??  not worth it.. so this year really the only new years resolutions I made were to be kinder to myself about what I do/don't do, weight I do/do not lose, etc..

the other thing I wanted to work on (forget calling them resolutions) is that I needed to hold less resentment/anger/dislike in.  This one for me does not come easy..

so since Jan. 1st. let me tell you I have not done a good job of this hold resentment/anger/dislike thing, but hey I am being kinder to myself so I let it all go..

but then yesterday I was talking with another expat that is moving back to the US and I listened to the negative feelings she had about Argentina and her time here and I went home feeling quite sad.  I really hoped that I hadn't been negative in speaking of any of our previous locations..

and then I remembered NEW MEXICO!!  we lived in NM for 9 LONG months.. it was by far the worst 9 months of my LIFE.. it was at a very hard time in my life.. Nola was 16 months when we moved and I was 7 months pregnant.  It was middle of summer and Scott and I had been apart for a while and selling a house, renting, his job (which was in a different time zone) and just the location of where we were was HORRIBLE!!.. and I have probably never said a kind or nice word about the place EVER!!

so let me tell you the things I loved about New Mexico

1.  the local library.. it was small and lovely and books were always for sale.  I bought a book for Nola there.. "amy loves the rain" and it was Nola's favorite and I read it all of the time.. it is in storage.. I couldn't part with it. 

2.  breakfast tacos!!  It was the first place ever that I had actually had a breakfast tacos.. egg, potato, chirizo.. how the heck were these things NOT in my belly before I turned 30.. amazing..

3.  The isolation.. now it was hard to be so isolated, but when you get right down to it, it is quite lovely to not have homes on top of one another and to be able to drive for a hour or so with not a house in sight.. just rambling tumble weeds and a random tree or so.. One time I saw a tarantula the size of my tire..

4.  The hospital.. small and lovely... and where I had Cora.. I had the nicest nurse Anne who stayed with me during my delivery of Cora even though she was off duty.. she just couldn't let me be alone in the operating room.. and I am so very thankful for her.. I hope I told her enough how much I valued her.

5.  K-Mart.. when you live in a town where the next biggest town is about 1.5 hours away.. with no real towns in between, the K-Mart is pretty nice.. as the Walmart just gets old after a while..

and there you have it.. those were the good parts I will from now on talk about when people mention New Mexico.. :)

today I was frustrated by having to go to the bank to pay a bill with 75 people in front of me, standing in the rain because the line was so long it went outside.  I thought nothing but negative thoughts.. but nope.. the rain is lovely.. as it brings the most beautiful days to Buenos Aires.. and the flowers are so vibrant. This is me dropping the resentment.. negative.. :)

well I really have no pictures this post.. we are enjoying our break from school, being local tourist and look forward to our journey to Peru next week.. so next post.. pictures for sure..

Happy 2015...