101 days...

so today is 101 days here.. someone today asked me why I count the days here.  I honestly have no real reason.  I guess part of me wants to see how far I have come since being here.  I guess I need something.  I find it a great accomplishment that I can now get to the Walmart 5 miles away without trembling with fear like I did at day 13.. truly it is the small victories that I need.

today by far is one of the hardest emotional days here I have had.  I have cried, I have held it together, I have tried to laugh, I have been mad and I have been overwhelmed with sadness.  Mostly though I have just felt so out of place. 

Having friends in the house for the past 3 days has been so lovely, but truly I was not prepared for how I would feel when they left.  I was not prepared at all.    

 

so today... 101 days in.. this is truly all I have today.. lovely memories of days 98, 99 and 100

 

oh and I also have SEVEN.. yes SEVEN speeding tickets equaling about $6,000 pesos in fines (feel free to convert that one to USD)...  SIGH... I love that they just ticket you by mail..